wow, cheers, its the hols. one problem. no one to call, and no one calls me

yes. the title says it all. its the jolly season, and lotsa partying going around i expect. and another thing. i'm 19 hitting the big 2-o and its kinda scary, and it kinda makes me think sometimes that i'm a big loser who has done nothing fantastic so far. will reflect all these sentiments with manta-ray for the xmas greeting.

is everyone really so busy that they forget there's this someone who was with them during the 4 years or 2 years (maybe more of the latter; thats where my closer friends are). and my guy pals are awfully busy (ok, only one), and it reflects the sorry state of my social circle. alas.

sigh. i hate to be forgotten and taken for granted by my friends. sucky feeling...