this ghostly feeling

Lately, I've been feeling something weird. Its the feeling of knowing how things come together in some vague super-picture. I can *feel*, or *sense* that super-picture, but it has yet to become intangible in my head.

And I met Rajen, and the advice he gives is splendid: 'First do the thesis, then be famous', which I adapt to, 'First get the degree, then go change the world'.

I'm tired of thinking about the future and what I'm doing about my life. I'm tired. I realise that I can't do any of this actually, that I am dependent entirely upon the Lord. So God, I ask for more of You! I ask for the strength to get through another day, as You have given me the strength to last thus far. Lord I thank You!

And I'm also realising that good teachers make all the difference in the world. Teachers who go beyond the 'its not in the syllabus' answer.

Universities should focus on getting good teachers. Because if they do that, the research will come, the students will come. Good universities have good teachers, I hope.

And I need to read/write. So many things to do... so little time.