relationships and all

Recently at chatterbox, I heard somone saying something about the need to be in a relationship for 'someone to talk to when you feel tired'. I thought about it, and since the person was talking about being in a relationship, I would wonder if this was the time I should start thinking about committing to anyone in particular. But then, as I thought more about it, I realised that I was in no position to do so. My heart is flawed, and will always be - the love that I give will always be imperfect. In other words, I will not be able to love as I should. At this moment, I realise that being with God is that perfect relationship that I would need - He being the person to talk to when I'm tired, to be strengthened, to go on in life. The physical touch and warmth of a hand might be reassuring, but that too, is imperfect.

So for now, I'll be really careful to whom I pour my heart out to. Until I can find the people I can float around with consistently, things about emotions and relationships will be moot. Besides, I'm not capable of giving truly now. I think my emotions are still in a rather fragile state now, and I'll only be a burden to the person I'll be sharing with. It has to be a reciprocal thing: I'll be sharing a lot, but will I be willing to receive in return? I cannot say for certain, so I shall move really slowly when it comes to relationships...

Another lesson made possible, by the intense relationships in USP...