26th july 2007 - not the average thursday

today, i'm only home because the croos country event got cancelled due to heavy rain. so what the heck. am spending the last home moments blogging.

everyday reading spiritual man has been of immense... revelation. everyday i know more about how i suck both as a person and as a christian. it is extremely hard to live a spiritual life...arh well. how do i spend each day in camp with meaning and purpose when most of the time people are sleeping or playing? ... ...

i've been an awful christian. failed utterly. but i can't share it in camp. can i? is it a difference in mindset? ... ...

its so difficult... especially in NS..