CHALET....

chalet was FUN..!! but.....

hmm... i'm still not sure/uncertain/hesitating/unsure/undetermined/.........about relationships...
at the chalet, someone asked me: "you like her is it?"................

i just couldn't answer........... do i like her?

heck, i can't help but think what a wonderful friend i have in her...even telling me to go after that other girl.... my mind is now seriously torn/divided/separated/...... its not a matter of who to choose... its about... something else... it made me think about that thin line separating friendships and (romance?)???? but i think i'm sorta glad about her telling to go after the other girl, otherwise....i would never have known?

hmm.... and it made me think more about myself... i'm so socially awkward sometimes i dunno wad to do.. maybe on a more personal basis i can do better, but in a group i am simply not in my element...so.. people mistake my individualism for leadership...

but the chalet was fun... played a sadistic game... so many had theirs hand red and swollen, having been slapped upon... then... pool.. then... thats it...

then the ride back with a friend.. who reminded me of the person i was earlier in the year, before i changed my mindset and attitude...

its important to adapt and accept reality, and most importantly, its your own life you're living..so, to heck with how others perform, cos it doesn't matter to you...so... take it easy...

count your blessings, and you will realise how truly blessed you are..........