10th august 2007

i am angry about a few things. like how people seem to take me for granted. like, trying to live in an indifferent world... makes me angry. being in the family and their suffocating choke-hold. i'm angry about living in an indifferent society, with indifferent people, living their indifferent lives, like they couldn't care less. i'm extremely angry. i need martin luther king, and i definitely need God. i'm sure they were both angry people. but their anger was based on God's own love. longsuffering patience - what a trait.

when people talk about the things they are passionate about, they really talk like they're very angry, really agitated, really excited. i used to have such feelings, but they are all fading away... and only anger remains. is it self-centredness? maybe it is. oh well.

i'm angry, about the near-lies we are being told about. the truth so skewed it has no appearance to the truth at all. all the empty talk about the bright wonderful future. but seriously...the shackles are still with us. we aren't living in greater freedom, no identity, -faith, what faith?-... oh well... patriotism, whats that? what we can do for our country? ... no, our country tells us what to do. thanks, kennedy, wish you were right here. haha. God bless Ameri-..., no, Singapore.

i am tired. of inconsistent leadership, of contradictions and tired rhetoric. i am jaded, tired... of restraints and bounded mentalities. but not for freedom for my own sake, ultimately, it is still for Him. Lord. help me.